Melancholy, Axiety, & Depersonalization can consider us to quite dim places. In this movie, I explore the value of being familiar with when to overlook your inner voice as it pertains to temper diseases.
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My Tale
My title is Noah and on May perhaps 18 2011, I experienced a scarce reaction to a vaccine referred to as VIVITROL and for that reason spiraled into a big, agitated, suicidal depression with depersonalization. I dropped twenty five lbs in four weeks and was in full panic or around panic for 8 weeks straight blended with the darkest most distressing depression I cold have at any time imagined. I right away could not work and experienced to transfer in with my mom and dad who together with lots of siblings and good friends experienced to enjoy me 24/seven as I was so suicidal. I was eventually hospitalized. Getting via just about every day appeared actually unbearable and I knew I would undoubtedly die. I have been place on lots of lots of diverse SSRI’s SNRI’s Tricyclics, Temper stabilizers, anti psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a kind of shock treatment referred to as RTMS. I barely noticed any improvement in my affliction for a full calendar year. It was determined I experienced cure resistant depression and I put in virtually just about every moment in tears. Months just after beginning my latest round of remedies (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a past ditch hard work, I experienced my blood drawn for attainable hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back two hundred ng/Dl and a hundred and fifty ng/Dl. The normal twenty five calendar year previous male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I for the initial time experienced any type of attainable explanation as to why I was not finding improved and why I might be so so sick. The indicators of these types of Reduced T are quite identical to individuals of big depression. I began Testosterone alternative treatment soon just after and have been examining in with the globe and documenting my expertise with cure as perfectly as giving my perception and standpoint on different subject areas of psychological wellness. I am blessed to say that I have gradually, about the past calendar year and ten months, been enhancing and getting to be additional steady which I under no circumstances considered to be attainable. My minimal T manifested alone in the kind of Important depression, nervousness, and depersonalization/ derealization for about a calendar year. Getting some psychological steadiness back is nothing at all limited of a miracle as I was around demise for what felt like permanently. I do not think about myself to be fully healed nonetheless but I am closer now then at any time in advance of and intention to use what I have been via to support or at least supply support to many others in will need I was equipped to effectively appear off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
I work out all the time as a portion of my psychological wellness recovery!!! Pounds training and all varieties of cardio rule a lot of my absolutely free time!
I regularly tell myself to go deeper into my depression. Should I not listen to myself when I think that?
I will think about this. Thanks. But my voices keep coming too and I usually can't stop them. All I can do is to try to ignore them and tell myself that what they are saying are lies and that it doesn't make sense. But sometimes they keep me awake and drain my energy, attention, ability to focus and concentrate which is really annoying and hard to deal with at times.
I have had dp/dr for so long (6 years) that i don't even remember how it felt to be normal :/ my dp/dr has gotten so much worse this year, even though i started eating good and work out alot. my situation does seem pretty hopeless to me, but i am still trying my best to cope up live with this shit, i have never been on meds, so i might go see a doctor soon
Where you get your tattoos done?
Just started living with this dp syntom doesnt really bother me that much anymore. it litterally might just be depression +bignoknow
Great advice!
Hey Noah, thanks for the dose of realness! Hope your struggle is going well and thanks for sharing these tips with us. :)
Yep, you help me a lot. I feel that inner voice…telling me "you are not good enough" or "give up", and most of the timmes is during summer, I dont understand why, most of the times is when the weaher is shiny, the only time I feel good is at night, I am more calm and relaxed. I read one article on a magazine that said that we have a something in the back of the head that may need some treatment and injections and a lot of people like us stoped being depressed, I am going to get an appointment with a neurologist and then I will tell you something: Thank for your help 🙂 Jeep Strong
This is totally off topic but I am
Just curious your thoughts. On this guy vegan gainz. He attacks everyone on the most foul and personal ways and judges them before he's even had a conversation with them. All because they eat meat and he believes this justifies his behavior. I probably shouldn't have given my opinion before I ask yours in case you don't know anything about him. Hope you're well!!
I was at 1000 at 100 mg /10 days now I'm on 14
Holy shit man lowering the frequency of my test as me all types of f*d up. My mood is absolutely horrible. I feel misrible anxious super depressed and completely exhausted. I am Def feeling hopeless knowing at this rate being a month now things have just got worse and I'm really questioning whether even being on it at all. I mean I don't even know how much better I am off now. been having trouble sleeping I mean just everything's been crazy. I just don't know what to do anymore I'm trying to be patient but shit sucks. I'm hoping this will pass but I really don't know. I've actually lost interest in everything actually today is the first day I have even check my email to check your updates which I normally never miss at all and have helped me a lot. this complete loss of desire for anything has me worried I really don't care about anything right now. help
Thanks, big guy. Sage wisdom in this video.
I never thought about it this way Noah. You really cannot trust your inner voice when it constantly tells you negative ruminations about yourself. Just yesterday, my mind was telling me "I'm not smart enough, or I need to work harder". I started to feel down and talked to those that are supportive. I started to understand that I am doing well and not be as critical on myself. Self-criticism would be a GREAT video for you to do in the future +bignoknow I have found that I am very, very critical of myself. I will find a problem that may not even really exist but what I have convinced myself. It starts with depression and anxiety intensifying those negative thoughts that everyone occasionally has about themselves. It seems a person depressed and anxious cannot see much of the positive, and struggles to be able to think clearly about how to make some situations better. Instead just mentally go in circles.
The negative thoughts are your ego , and youre right that is not your true self. The ego does not always mean you are vain or big headed. The inner voices that tell you that youre better than everyone else are the same voices that tell you that everyone is better than you. Its all ego.
Eckhart tolle and buddhism talk alot about this.
Living with this anxiety day to day sucks, especially having to work all day every day and always being in stressed enviroments, my anxiety has improved a ton over the last year, ive never used meds i just eat healthy, exercise, meditate and watch help videos like these, i hope i can soon be completely anxiety free
Good video, my inner voice has become a deviant son of a bitch. Hardest part of dealing with this was learning and understanding that it's not me. I can appear and act normal to people at the flick of a switch, but inside is a dark place. not having the right thoughts emotions associated with how you want to feel in that moment is something extremely hard to deal with. Hope to feel internally genuine in my thoughts again someday
Solid advice Noah. You have the incredible ability to really zone in on what troubles "us" the most. If I may, I just wanted to share my opinion on your recent spell of inferiority and self doubt that were brought upon seeing others graduate. Firstly, you couldn't of fooled me about not being a college grad. Since I've encountered you, I've found you to be very well spoken and articulate. In my opinion, most college grads want what you have: a steady job, a partner, and a home. You're kicking ass in these departments, so I don't think the grass is THAT much greener on the other side. Like others have mentioned I'm sure, you can always go back to school homie. Before DP/DR hit me six months ago, I was scheduled to walk the stage and during my last semester, I would be in class with all age groups from all walks of life…there is no age limit on education.
ALWAYS remember that you have kept thousands of people's head above water when they thought they would surely drown…I know that's my story.
dude! is your shirt a bunch of pogs?! that used to be the best game!
This is very true. I'm learning to tell the voices apart at the moment with CBT because it can be really difficult as those negative voices become so believable when you're depressed. I feel like I am able to speak some of my mind on here because everyone is so open-minded and accepting. Thanks for all the videos, Noah. I can tell how much you've been through by the way you speak about it.
That's the thing – no one really understands what depersonalization even is. And depression and anxiety are so misunderstood. Most people judge you for it, so then it just adds to the bullshit you feel.
I feel like I keep telling myself it's hopeless, it's over — and when I look for reassurance, it only reinforces that for me.
It's about to be seven years since depersonalization first hit me. And seven years later it hasn't gotten better. I remember the very first day I felt depersonalized, I was telling myself "this isn't going to bother you in a week, so just ride it out." And here I am, seven years later, waiting to ride it out.
And it's getting too much. I can't be outside for too long. When I'm out with friends, or even during the school year when I'm walking outside from class to class, shit gets so rough. And today my friends all want to go to the mall and I cannot even imagine stepping foot into it. Not just because of depersonalization, but also because of lack of motivation, and fear of having a panic attack. It's just a circle, it's a stupid cycle I can't get out of. I get that one day things MAY possibly be okay… but that day isn't today and man I hate this so much. 🙁 Thanks for making this video though. I got some helpful advice out of it.
my inner voice is telling me that im bleeding from the inside…. thanks for stating the ovious…. i just had my tonsils removed ^^ half drugged commenting is nice ^^
You're probably not the guy to ask but fuck it, i'm 17 and my libido is shit atm do you think it could be down to anxiety? have you ever had a decrease in libido in your teens or early 20's? keep up the videos man.
+bignoknow here's one for your next Q&A. Where do you stand on the breakthrough therapies for depression & anxiety that have been in the news. (MDMA, LSD, Ketamine, Cannabis). If presented with a magic pill would you try it? I'm guessing maybe not given your Vivitrol reaction. Also a useless fact about new antidepressants – they only need to score 15% above a placebo group (people taking sugar pills) to be approved for use on the market as antidepressants. !?!?!?!?!?
I would love to be like you (you're probably going to say no way because of your mental health) but your ability to reach out and connect to your audience, change peoples life, put people on track, be there for someone. you are an amazing person and never let anyone put you down brother, take care.
Hey Noah – when did you get your ears pierced? They look cool!
Thanks
Hey noah just wanna inform you I started BDD therapy and I really hope its gonna help me back up. I cant express how greatful I am towards you because, and I mean it, without you I might not be alive today. Thx for all these videos and keep it up! Im sure one day your channel will go big! :)
Nice video Noah. I'm struggling at the moment so this was a nice angle on the trusting yourself. The inner voice got the better of me a month ago. I was on meds that did not mix well with a night out drinking, and after 12 years, that inner voice made me jump off a bridge. I didn't know what was on the other side, but it was only about 30ft onto concrete, just a busted collarbone. Since then though my view on death has changed, I dont feel scared. The inner you you describe that strives to live has always been my backup, and feel like im starting to lose it. I guess what I'm saying is, sometimes we dont have a choice, like many that I'm sure struggle like myself, you get to a point where your so run down and tired of 'exsisting', that your body and mind have had enough…..but like i said, nice video.